jumping back into life.
So I am starting a new thread because the new website format wont let me view my old thread past a certain number of pages so sorry if I am missing anything I think I caught most of it before it swapped over but anyway it was probably time for a new thread anyway. @MB95 @Lost_Space_Explorer5 I am tagging you too cause I think you replied before.
anyway sorry I have been away, I went to my psychiatrist appointment and they said I had to go straight to hospital and I just got out today. I am super behind on uni now and really dont know what to do but that i am not going to think about tonight. a lot has been going on and I am now on a depot medication which I hate, I am seeing the psych again on friday and yeah idk where to even start. I will try and catch up on everything that has been going on here soon.
@MB95 thanks, nah she just said that it can take time and that it is pretty normal to be struggling with this stuff at this point.
@MaryRO yeah i tried to let myself cry but it just isnt happenig idk what is going on with me i am just trying to do at least one thing per day but it is hard.
@Lost_Space_Explorer5 yeah i am struggling with all those things and more i am just a bit of a mess at the moment idk everything is very hard right now. well i am not so scared of my CM anymore so that is helpful. idk i am supposed to see her tomorrow so i guess we will see how it goes.
I think trying to do one thing a day is a good goal @Eden1717 🙂 I'm sorry you're struggling with everything- that must be so hard 😞 I'm glad you're not as scared of your CM! It sounds like that would make things a bit easier and less stressful?
Hi @Eden1717, it is good to hear from you! It really sucks that things are so difficult for you right now. I hope things get easier for you soon and that you begin to feel more settled in. Best of luck seeing your CM tomorrow, hopefully you are able to get something helpful out of meeting with them. Given things are so hard right now, how are you spending most of your day at the moment?
Yeah true. I guess its going to take some time to adjust. Sorry she didn't have much in regards to strategies to help settle in. I'm glad you'll get to see her tomorrow though, how are you feeling about seeing her? I know you were quite scared of her before going into hospital but before that I remember you saying you were pretty happy with her being your CM?
@Lost_Space_Explorer5 and @MB95 thanks yeah i was sent to hospital I just got out today idk how i am feeling at the moment i am not 100% feeling better but i had to get out of there but i am at least less scared of people now which is good and idk i am on a new depot medication which my doctor said was stronger and will hopefully help but it can take time and i have so much uni to do but for tonight i am just resting. i will try and catch up with everything here soon.
@Eden1717!! You're back! I'm sorry you were sent back to hospital 😞 I can't imagine how scary and intense that was 😞 But I'm glad you're okay and safe. I'm glad you're less scared of people but sorry you're still not feeling 100%. Rest sounds like the best plan for tonight ❤️ Have you got something nice for yourself planned?
idk i am going to have a long shower and go to bed early tonight but that is for a little later for now i am just going to try and watch netflix. yeah it was scary and i am still a little freaked out and anxious but i am trying to be ok i think it is just that weird period of adjustment when you come out of hospital but i should be ok.
A long shower sounds like a great way to relax @Eden1717 I remember how good it felt to be able to go home and take a shower after hospital I mean the hospital showers were okay where I was but they weren't home. And some of the communal showers smelt funky 😬 And it can be really nice to be able to be back in your own bed. I'm sorry you're still feeling a little freaked out but yeah it could just be you adjusting to it all. How did Netflix watching go? I hope you're able to get some sleep tonight ❤️
Welcome back!! I am so relieved to hear you are safe and feeling a little less scared of people. This is actually a little freaky, I was literally thinking of you about an hour ago and how I should check in to see how you're doing and I had this feeling we'd be hearing from you soon and then I logged on and saw you're back!! I'm just so relieved to hear you are okay. Sorry you were in hospital, I know how much you hate it there but the main thing is you are safe. I think a long shower, Netflix, rest and an early night sounds like a good plan! Don't worry about catching up on here right away. You just focus on yourself and settling back in because like you said, it can be a bit of an adjustment. I'm just so glad you're okay, thanks for letting us know. It's great to see you back 💙
@Lost_Space_Explorer5 @MB95 thanks, that is a funny coincidence.
Today has been weird I talked to my psychologist today and she said i was doing a lot better and that she was glad i am on new meds and stuff. but she told me about a whole bunch of stuff i dont remember doing which was weird but anyway other than that today i have just been watching netflix and trying to chill.
That good your psych thinks you're doing a lot better @Eden1717 🙂 You do sound a bit better. Before going to hospital you seemed very scared and exhausted 😞 Do you feel any better? Cause you would be the best person to know that! And that would be weird being told about stuff you don't remember doing- did you want to talk about it? Netflix sounds nice 🙂 What have you been watching?
That's good to hear your psychologist seems to think you're doing better - do you feel like you'd agree with her? It's tough when we are reminded of stuff we don't remember doing. How are you feeling about hearing everything she had to say?
Hope you were able to chill a bit today with the nextflix and are starting to slowly settle into being back home.
Thanks @Lost_Space_Explorer5 and @MB95 I am having a hard time settling in to being home but i am trying and i am so exhausted because i didnt sleep the whole time i was in the hospital because i had a terrible roommate and it is a long story but anyway i must be doing a bit better because i am not so scared anymore and I feel less on edge. it was weird hearing about stuff i didnt remember like apperently i was talking about prophecies and all this other random stuff and just not making a lot of sense. and it is also hard to remember the first week of being in the hospital becase they had me very sedated so idk but it was weird like at the time everything made sense but now it all just seems fuzzy.
That sounds really exhausting and confusing Eden. Not being able to remember what happened must feel really shitty but maybe it's not such a bad thing cause it sounds like it could have been rather scary being so sedated and stuff? Do you think it might be a good idea to try not to think about it too much and focus on what's happening now and what you can do to help yourself settle back in? And then if you really want to go into it maybe you could explore it a little more down the track with your psych or someone when you're feeling a little more adjusted back into things? Idk? What's your thoughts? I can't imagine any of this would be easy!! It sucks that you had such a terrible room mate, hopefully now that you're home you might be able to catch up on some sleep. What do you think? It's great to hear you're not so scared and on edge, that must feel like a bit of a relief hey?
Yeah i am trying to just focus on getting through now. i am so exhausted though it is intense all i want to do is sleep at the moment i must have had an intense few weeks and i must be crashing a bit from everything. hopefully i sleep tonight.
Hey @Eden1717 hospital sounds like a bit of a blur it must be really disorientating not being able to remember a lot of what happened 😞 I'm sorry you didn't get much sleep at hospital that sucks you had a bad roommate- I'm relieved I've never been to a mental health hospital that had multiple people in a room- that would be an extra stress! I don't blame you for being so exhausted... did you manage to sleep last night?
Hey @Eden1717 ,
Glad to hear you are back home and you’ve worked through this really intense time. I can imagine it would have been super tiring and draining, especially having a difficult roommate on ward and minimal sleep, so I can imagine you must be pretty spent. Sleep sounds like a solid plan. I wish you the best of luck and a restful slumber. Sleep well!
@Lost_Space_Explorer5 and @MB95 I am replying up here cause it is starting to get confusing anyway i should probably be sleeping now but that isnt happening thank you for the support tonight and i am doing my best to stay safe.
Hey @Eden1717 I'm sorry you were struggling to sleep last night but I'm glad you were trying your best to stay safe ❤️ How are you going today? I hope you're going as okay as possible and that your appointment went okay if you went.. We're thinking of you and are here if you need
Hey @Eden1717 I hope you're okay and safe. I have a feeling they might have sent you to hospital or something and that's why you can't reply 😢 Anyway we're thinking of you ❤️
I was thinking the same thing unfortunately. Just know we are here and thinking of you. I hope they are being kind to you and that you are safe 💙
Hey @Eden1717 we're still thinking of you and hope you're going okay ❤️ Here is a virtual hug if you need/want one 🙂
Hope you managed to get some sort of sleep last night and that today goes okay for you. Goodluck with your appointment. See how you're feeling but I reckon giving your mum a call before and after is a good idea?
Thinking of you 💙
