Heya @Lost_Space_Explorer5 , I've just been catching up on everything since I last worked...
Basically me!
I'm so sorry to hear that chronic pain is causing you issues- I can really relate to that one, I'm not sure if we've chatted about this before here, but many years ago i had quite a serious injury, that resulted in me having a chronic pain condition for awhile.
Getting the right mixture of medication, treatment, and other supportive care is often an exhausting process of trial and error, and it sucks when some meds make you feel like crap. I can also REALLY relate to that sense of wanting to be in control of your body, and feeling frustrated when you're not.
If you don't mind me asking, have you ever seen a pain specialist? Like anything, that can also be trial and error I know (ugh, bodies. so annoying!) - but I know that for a lot of people who live with chronic pain, having someone who's looking at all of your medications and making sure that it's the right mix, as well as looking at the bigger picture of *you*, is huge.
How are you feeling today? I feel like chronic pain isn't talked about enough - it can be so shit, but it's so totally invisible.
Here for you 
I'm also going to send you a little email later on as well, so keep an eye out for that
