Helo, I'm new to this platform, so I apologize if I get things wrong😬.
So I know everyone wants people to treat them nicely, but when people are super nice to me I feel uncomfortable, disgusted and get angry sometimes, because I'm used to harshness. When someone tries to support me, I become super stressed and defensive, but at the same time I strongly wish they could help me. I also can not feel comfortable unless something bad is happening in my life. It's almost as if I wished my life was bad. But at the same time, those things are what make me miserable. I'm being pulled in so many different directions and it's driving me out of my mind.
