@corpsehand no worries! Medication really is a rough ride and it's definitely one of those things you don't want to go alone with. I hope you can figure out maybe with your healthcare professional 🙂 and I'm happy to share my experiences too!
I'm glad you can see the positives of your diagnosis, it's really hard especially with something as stigmatising as bipolar/cyclothymia. I guess some of the benefits are that people with this diagnosis are more likely to be creatives, and also can often be very compassionate from knowing the full spectrum of emotions. I'm sorry to hear that your dad makes it so difficult, that perspective is very outdated these days and doesn't help at all. Do you have anyone else in your everyday life who is more understanding and can support you?