Hey @Anonymous I'm sorry things have been so horrible, as if lockdown wasn't bad enough- it sounds like you've become really isolated 😞 I don't think you're overreacting, your friends don't sound like they're being very kind at the moment if they are excluding you and laughing at you 😞 It sounds like at one time you were close to some of them so this makes it more painful? 😞 Do you think letting them know that they are being hurtful by laughing at you because it reminds you of a really bad time and asking them to seriously stop could help? Unless you have already asked and they just haven't respected your boundaries? I do acknowledge that maybe it is possible that they didn't mean to exclude you and stuff like you were saying, because sometimes we can be really good at masking stuff and others genuinely don't know when we're struggling... Idk it's hard..
Ugh I totally get the being the one to always start conversations with friends, it can be a sucky feeling. I kind of did what you're doing where I just stopped reaching out to my friend because I felt like she didn't want to talk to me anyway. I think she just had stuff going on because now things are okay
Idk friendships are so complicated I don't really have any advice but I'm sorry you're feeling so bad 😞 I hear what you're saying about not wanting to switch friend groups at the moment
That's a tough one with not being able to talk to a counsellor without your parents finding out. I used to hide in my room and put pillows and blankets on the door to muffle the sound and then hide in the wardrobe when I was calling my counsellor cause I didn't want my parents finding out! Lol and once when I was on holiday and that wasn't an option I went for a walk and sat near the beach 😅 The reception was so bad! Anway sorry I got distracted! I like @Taylor-RO's idea of trying going on webchat with something like eheadspace or kidshelpline- would this work for you?
