hello @GioDes , I am really thankful that you shared your experiences. it has given me so much to think about. I really relate to that 'disconnect' feeling and it makes sense that intellectualizing things is a way of detaching, I said somewhere in this thread it feels like being in your own grey bubble with your thoughts, similar to what you said about being in a glass case. I suppose we can avoid our feelings by thinking over the top of them instead of feeling them. The catch is, the feeling you get from that is much worse than actually feeling sadness or anger or whatever you are avoiding... it gives you a sort of existential despair. my thoughts feel more real than the world around me. I guess I need to break out of the mind prison!!! I think that is the whole point of mindfulness but I'm so resistant to it for some reason, I think I am afraid of being in my body, and I always want to yell at the voices for the guided meditations, "how can you be so calm!!!! Can't you see the pain and chaos we are living in!"
anyway, I really appreciate your reply, it makes me feel more hopeful that I can find a way out of the maze of questions and into life 🙂
