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I don't know why but I just feel like I really need to ask if anyone feels the same as me about R U OK? day. Like I get its good to check in and ask people if they are okay but for some reason this day just feels so fake and I don't actually even have the words for it to be honest. It just makes me feel so uncomfortable and even more alone and quite angry and frustrated and annoyed and I don't know I just actually REALLY hate it. Like I do know its meant to be a good thing and all that crap but like for some reason seeing it all pop up in my newsfeed or hearing people talk about it and jokingly ask someone if they are okay just makes me so fucking angry and I don't know why because I know checking in is a good thing but idk maybe I just feel like we shouldn't need a day for it and idk it just makes me feel like people are being fake asking the question because they are only doing it for social reasons and stuff like idk. I know some people are genuine about it but the whole thing just makes me really uncomfortable and actually makes me feel even more alone. I don't know if this is just me? Or does anyone else feel the same? I'm really sorry, I don't mean to sound like I'm bagging out the day because I get its meant to be a good thing and spark conversation but I guess I just don't feel like it's very genuine because we shouldn't need a day for this shit. We should be looking out for eachother everyday and honestly I feel like people who are really struggling are not exactly going to just open up because some stupid day makes them feel like they have too. Idk. I hope the day means something to others and genuinely does help people but for me I feel like every year it just highlights how alone I am with this and makes everything feel so much worse. Idk. Please tell me someone can relate or am I just super fucked up? 🙃 Sorry.