Hey @Eden1717 I'm sorry about uni and that today has been stressful 😞 Is there a time limit you need to get your degree done in?
I can relate to the feeling of having to hide while others don't 😞 It can be an awful feeling to feel like you're a 'burden' or 'too much' for people 😞 I don't know if this helps but- you're not too much, and you're not a burden. Some people mightn't be able to handle as much when supporting others and like I guess that's okay but that does not make you too much. Your struggles aren't your fault, you didn't choose to have so many obstacles in life. With mental health stuff I feel like there's even more shame but I guess this also happens with like physical health stuff too- with feeling like you're a burden, and having people leave you or ask you to avoid topics because it's too 'real'. It sucks. And it isn't fair. Idk I feel like something needs to change but idk what. Like maybe people could be more educated about mental illness and know skills for communicating. But like boundaries are important too I guess idk it's really hard. I guess we have services that we can talk to for a reason but it's really not fair when friendships/other relationships are one sided like how you described. It's not fair that you have to take on everyone else's problems and they won't listen to yours.
I'm glad you do have some friends you can talk to. Did you want to talk about what happened in class today? Sometimes I get annoyed when other people talk about their struggles because I feel like I can't talk about mine? Idk why but I feel really guilty for feeling annoyed and like it's my own fault for not speaking up? I feel like maybe feeling annoyed like that is a sign we're not having a need met in our own life- like not getting enough support or something? I'm not sure if this is a similar situation though
Have you been sleeping okay? Sometimes being tired can make us more irritable (which I'm sure you know, I'm stating the obvious as always 😅)
I hope you get some rest tonight ❤️ We're all here to listen- I'm happy this is a place you can share stuff on 🙂
