Hiya @gladydaddy 👋 , it was a good idea to get this off your chest. It seems like you've been through a lot with school/friendships over the past couple of years. Moving to a new school and breaking into a new group is so hard - I'll never forget how lonely that was for me when I was in high school.
It made me smile when I read that you and your best friend reconnected. It must have felt nice that she came to your side when you needed her. I'm hearing that you're feeling pretty down, though - sometimes it's nice to spend some alone time when you've got a lot on your mind. How are you feeling today? It might be nice to get some fresh air if you've been in your room for a few days.
It sounds like you have had a lot to think about and process - teen years are full of brand new experiences we've never had before. They can be fun and exciting, but also, confusing and weird. It doesn't always feel like it when you're going through it, but everything you're feeling is normal and valid.
You mentioned that you struggle with an eating disorder, which isn't an easy thing to go through. If you feel comfy to talk about it, I was hoping to ask if you have any support with this?