Just want to scream into the void.
Going to see my family next weekend and just feeling unsupported. I've got a semi supportive relationship with my family- I know that they've always got my back and are supportive of my decisions. We've got our issues, a vast amount of mental health issues and abusive childhoods etc. All of which made me sprint as far away as possible as soon as I could. I live 5hrs drive away from the majority of my family, which meant that I didn't get visits every weekend and I was very happy with that. But it's been six years. My mum has visited once. One of sisters also visited once- for a work trip that happened to be in the area. The only person whose visited semi regularly has been my dad- whose making an active effort to be a part of my life after me literally being no contact for over six months after pulling him up on his emotional abuse. I just feel like I'm always the person to make the first step in communication. I'm always the first to make a call, visit or video chat. Having recently moved into a new house, I really want to have a sibling/parent visit. I just want to be able to say "hey look at my life- i made it. I made a career, friends, and a life! Just acknowledge it! just see how much I've done!"
Literally all my family currently knows of my life from me putting myself out there and informing them of life changes. None of them have made the effort to come visit in the last four years, seen any of my friends/relationships/etc. I know everyone's got their own lives and things going on but I'd like something-anything. The last time I got a phone call from any one of my family that I hadn't started myself was when one of my siblings died. Just tired
