Hi everyone, this is my first post on here so I'm a little new and trying to work things out still😅
I just feel like I need to know someone is listening or reading this. If not I'm just going to ramble anyway because I feel like I have so much to say but I never have the right words to say these in person or have the confidence to say this to people.
I just feel so depressed right now. I honestly don't feel like I have much going on in my life to make me happy. I'm 22 years old this year and I feel like I have achieved nothing in my life. I have no friends, have never had a boyfriend, my social life is absolutely terrible, I have strong social anxiety and I am just struggling so much! I thought I'd make friends at university, but ended up graduating knowing nobody and I'm so upset about it because you always hear people finding their best friends during these times. One of my big dreams is to travel the world with friends or maybe a boyfriend if I could make it past a couple of dates. The last guy I was seeing for around 4 months has just recently ghosted me and seems to be ignoring me and I have no idea why! But thing is, he is my co-worker so he talks to me sometimes at work, but no more on social media. I'm just so confused. I have previously cut my friends off when I first started battling depression about 4 years ago now. Have tried therapy but it didn't seem to help me.
All I do now is go to work, eat, sleep and do it all again the next day. I'm just so tired of it. I've been waking up around 5am or 6am with a pain in my chest and just constant anxiety going through me. I just don't know what to do anymore. I need a place to make friends, but I just can't do it!😭
