Hey @Courtney-RO, thank you for checking in.
If I’m going to be completely honest, I’ve never thought of really committing suicide. However, I have honestly thought about how I would do it. Which even I understand is not mentally healthy.
around the end of year 8 is when COVID struck and we where all put into lockdown. School work just started getting so overwhelming to the point where I’d get anxious and hide myself away from the tasks. I guess maybe these feelings have carried over and I haven’t been able to recover. I’ve been known to love stroganoff and slow-cook. When my parents tried to make me these usually delicious meals, I just couldn’t eat them (which seems to follow up with many other foods). I constantly just felt like my heart was sinking into my stomach and I had that anxious feeling. I think they may begin to see something is up soon.
I have been skipping breakfast lately and just can’t enjoy anything I have for lunch and dinner. I started skipping meals a couple of weeks ago because I just can’t get myself to eat anything. I do try to eat at least 2 meals a day. I’m starting to eat just for the sake of surviving.
I forgot to mention before that I feel like I just can’t stay focused on task for longer periods of time. I also feel like my memory is degrading. I can easily forget something right after it has been said to me, which is something I again don’t usually do.
your reply means a lot, thank you for your help. You guys a truly heroic 😊
