Hey @FloralNova675 I hear you, when a feeling sticks around for so long it can be hard to ignore 😞 Maybe it's one of those things that's going to stay there unless you 'tackle' it? (there could be lots of ways to do this e.g. talking to your gp like others have suggested)
I've found sometimes feelings/thoughts can stick around no matter what we try (although they can improve a bit), and at those times I think it can be about accepting but not paying much attention to those thoughts/feelings and being like 'thanks brain'. It sounds like there are so many other things to try before this though. You mentioned maybe considering going to a gp, but you're concerned you might cry? What would be wrong about that?
You should be proud of yourself for graduating! Oh my gosh the travelling thing sounds so cool but also so scary! The fact you've looked into it so much is awesome- I wish I could travel too but I don't feel confident enough yet. I haven't even moved out of home!
Yeah it's really hard to keep opening up to people when they keep leaving without telling you why. Plus it takes so much energy to build up any kind of relationship in the first place. Don't feel like an idiot for opening up to him, it makes you brave I think. Once I felt a similar way for opening up to this person I liked and then later on we weren't really friends anymore and I was like why did I say all that stuff I'm so stupid. I think 'liking' someone can make you braver than you might usually feel and then when you look back with your more 'anxious' lenses you're like whyy did I do that. But like at the time what you did was really brave, even though it made you vulnerable. Putting yourself out there is never easy, but sometimes it's worth it. I mean even though it sounds like guy broke your heart (if I'm hearing it right?), do you think there is anything you learnt or got from that relationship that made it a little bit more 'worth it'? Like overall it can suck losing someone, but there can be some elements that you can look back on and learn from or smile at? I mean like with my example of this person I regretted opening up to, after a while I think I don't regret it because I told them something I wasn't able to tell anyone aside from professionals and they didn't react as badly as I thought they would
Anyway, I went on a bit of a tangent there, sorry. Let us know how the GP goes if you decide to go and want to tell us! 🙂 I hope they're able to help with the chest pain as well, it might be a good idea to get that checked out anyway if you haven't already?
