Hi @Lost_Space_Explorer5 thank you for checking in with us, its always so nice to hear from you. I'm sorry to hear that so much is going on at the moment, I can see why you might be a little distracted from your thesis. What topic are you writing your thesis on? What has been your favourite part of your thesis so far?
I'm sorry to hear that you feel alone, though I can understand you not wanting to talk to anyone. Its awful when you feel like your the one making all the effort, sometimes all it takes is a short message to remind us that they still care. I just want to say that we're always here for you and we really are so lucky to have you here with us. I do want to say though, you are not being selfish, nor will you always be stuck in the same position or drag people down. It is not selfish to ask for support from the people around you. You are such a huge part of this community and we know just how much care and compassion you have for others. But I do want to remind you that you deserve that same level of kindness that you give to others, too.
I'm sorry to hear that talking to your psychologist made things so much worse. The fact that you were brave enough to open up and talk to your psychologist in the first place is incredible! You should be so proud of yourself for having the courage to talk to them. You mentioned that you keep flinching at yourself and your worried that people will see. That sounds really horrible. While it may not feel like it now, things will get easier. If you ever feel like you would like to talk to someone, there are some really great helplines out there like Kidshelpline and even Lifeline which may help you work through some of these heavy thoughts too.
We're all here for you 💜
