Hey @toxic-lover
I'm disheartened to hear what you are going through, but I just want to say thank you for reaching out again and sharing your experience with us .
I totally agree with @ayrc_1904 - just because someone has hurt us in the past, no matter how severe it was or how betrayed or stunned we felt, we will nevertheless have "last hair thread of feeling" for that person. That feeling may last for a while. It may escalate at times or fade away gradually. It may hurt and lead us to ruminate on the things we've or they've said or done in the past. It may make us wish things were different or are different now. You are definitely not alone in this - I've gone through something similar, however no way as severe, as what you are experiencing.
I'm sorry to hear that she is making things up about your relationship. It must've felt very unfair and made you feel confused and angry, which must be very damaging for you. When someone invalidate us to that extent, it's normal that we may feel tempted to defend ourselves, which could lead to more undesirable confrontations. I also agree with @Taylor-RO to seek professional help. However, apart from that, I would also just share my advice for coping with situations as such - but please take it with a grain of salt. I would recommend spending sometime sharing your part of the story with one or two people that you are very close with (and thay happen not to be mutual friend or your current partner). They could be your closest friend or a family member, or us! We are very glad to help! It's important to feel heard and validated in situations as such.
I hope you are feeling well, thanks for reading.
