Hi @Crocidolite_Blue,
I’m sorry to hear that you are experiencing so much right now. I can hear just how much guilt and heavy emotions you are currently experiencing and can only imagine how horrible this all must feel. Firstly, as you have mentioned self-harm, I just wanted to check whether you are safe tonight?
I want to start off by saying that you do deserve love and you are certainly worthy of happiness. You mentioned that you feel guilty for anything good that happens but I want to say that you do deserve good things in your life and that you shouldn’t feel guilty for receiving them, especially after working so hard to get to where you are now. Guilt is such an awful feeling in itself and so I can only imagine how draining and exhausting it must be to experience all of the time. What kind of things do you do to help get you through these hard moments? Is there maybe something nice you can do for yourself tonight to remind yourself of just how important you are?
I just wanted to let you know that I have made a couple of edits to your post and I will be sending you an email shortly to check in. So just keep an eye out for that.
I also want to remind you that you are not alone and we are all here to support you 💜
