Hey @lemurien
I'm really glad you checked back in with us and know that no-one here is going to be disappointed or judge you for struggling. We are always here to support whatever it is you're going through and actually think you're the opposite of a disappointment because you're taking the iniative to reach out when you need someone to listen. That's something people can find really difficult, so you definitely need to give yourself some more credit 😊
I think I've shared with you before that I have ADHD too, and I also have anxiety and depression as well. So whenever I read your posts I always relate to them so much! This line - 'it feels like being hit by a merry-go-round of different symptoms every day' - hard relate! It really is so difficult to figure out how they are all connected and where to start with finding ways to feel better. How long is it now until your psychiatrist appointment? I am keeping everything crossed for you that they are a good fit, I totally get how frustrating it is when some clinicians don't match up to your needs. Would it make you feel less anxious about it if you were able to do some preparation before your appointment? It really helps me to write down what I want to talk about when I see medical professionals, even just bullet points so I know I'll be ok if my mind goes blank in the moment.
I'm so glad you're starting to be a bit more kind to yourself. That's been a big part of my ADHD journey. But I also think it's pretty normal for that frustration to sneak in from time to time too! This stuff is hard!
What are some things you are proud of yourself for? It might be an idea to write this down somewhere and look back on it when the frustrated feels take over, or even writing it here and bookmarking it to come back to. Personally, I think you're doing extremely well. You're learning more about how your brain works, reaching out for support when you need it, on your way to getting support from a psychiatrist and are able to be really self aware of how your feeling. That's huge! Especially with executive dysfunction! ❤️
