Hello!!
I have really been busy lately… I’ve been working away from my home store a bit and it’s been nerve wracking but I feel like I’ve successfully completed that task🥰 I did have a few panic attacks but I worked on my breathing and managed not to stress to much…
It was really hard to let go of her but I had to and I’m glad I did… the baby steps count right?
I am so relieved that my nana is doing a bit better and glad my mum got to see her… honestly I’m not sure if that’s gonna happen any time soon… the doctors are saying that she’s going to be in hospital for 6 months😖
I am so proud of myself for reaching 26 days sober… although it hasn’t been easy… and not really… I’m planning on going away for my 20th birthday soon so that’s kinda the only celebration I have planned for reaching it.
It’s okay… I had a feeling that she was lying to me so it didn’t really bother me… what bothered me is the fact that she told me that I’m worthless and deserved everything that’s happened to me… I’m struggling with that right now… I’ve started to write things down and it’s helped a bit… but I just kinda feel lost and confused about that situation… it’s hurting me a lot more than I thought it would..😖
I’ve been in the middle of making playlist on Spotify and it’s been helping me with distracting myself from those thoughts… not to mention that work takes up most of my time😅
All I can say is that I can’t wait until December when I go on holiday for my birthday🥰
