Hi @axel@axel !
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. Everyone will have a different relationship with their gender identity, and yeah - it's understandable to be confused and feel lost at times. Don't feel the pressure to have a label just for the sake of having a label and comparing yourself to others around you who look like they have it all figured out (trust me, most people actually still don't hahaha).
But as you have stated, for you - figuring out your label/pronouns does bring comfort and stability in who you feel that you are and that's very important. I am sure that you will find yourself in due time as you grow as a person, experience life, and discover things about yourself. It is a process that might take time, but you are getting there.
I hope you are feeling alright, and all the best 💙
