Hi @NR2045
I just wanted to send some words of encouragement and support. Everyone will have their own journey in life, and sometimes it can get difficult when we are surrounded by people, yet no one can see the struggles that we are going through. We're here for you and we see you. There is nothing wrong with you, and you should be proud of yourself for getting to where you are.
Has there been anyone in the past at all that you have shared these experiences with? I understand it can be difficult, but it may make you feel better just by getting it off your chest even if you don't give too much detail.
If you don't feel like sharing these experiences with others yet (which is understandable), you can always try journalling and writing down how you feel and why. I found that this has helped with self-discovery and can provide a different perspective once things are on paper.
I hope you are well 💙
