Hi ashh,
Thank you for taking the courage to make this post. There is no requirement or criteria to be met for you to reach out and ask for support. :))
It sounds like you may be putting too much pressure on yourself to not have problems/be perfect/be strong, and that a large part of this pressure has come from your parents. I've received similar comments from my parents that I don't "live a bad enough life to have that severe problems" for certain struggles I've had, and I can relate to the pressure to not seek professional help/to stay strong. However, I really want to emphasize that no matter how good your life is compared to people, you have an absolute right to still have struggles/problems. Everyone has issues of their own, and it is never right to dismiss someone's struggles just because they seem insignificant compared to others. Therefore, it is not good that your parents seem dismissive. I also feel that it is important for you to treat yourself more kindly. Think about how you treat someone you are helping - it is different from how you treat yourself?
Furthermore, in your case, I think self-harm, especially considering its recurrence, is a serious issue that should be addressed and prioritized above other things. I believe if you do see a professional, they will only breach confidentiality if they believe it is necessary for your wellbeing. I know confidentiality is an important part of professional psychological practice, but I may be wrong about whether they are obliged to tell your parents if you are under the age of 18. Nonetheless, I believe it can be very helpful to start with your school counselor (assuming there is one?), because that way you can have regular sessions with them, and they do not have to tell your parents necessarily if you tell them not to. I know when I was in middle/high school the counselors kept conversations between us. Nonetheless, is it possible that your parents may not react in the way that you think they would? Just because they are very pressuring normally doesn't necessarily mean they will still have the same response/attitude when something serious happens.
As for the boy that you love, it may also be helpful to talk to a counselor about it, if you do see one. I also think it's good idea to focus on yourself and not be overly involved for now.
Finally, are there really close and trustworthy friends or other family members that you could possibly talk to?
Hope this helps :)) and hope I didn't misunderstand the key points,
-Greenfern
