Hey there @HugoLee ,
Thank you for connecting on the forums and sharing what has been happening for you.
It must be so hard to have lost your mum to cancer, and then having to face your own challenges. It sounds like it's taken a lot of strength to get to where you are now, and that in itself should be recognised.
In terms of dating, it sounds like it has been quite difficult for you. Do you attend any social events, study etc where you may meet people? People who truly care will see past the perceived weaknesses to see the real you.
Do you have supports in place who you can speak to? e.g. family members, friends, professionals?