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Hey everyone I'm new to this site I've been struggling with harm ocd since I was 13 although I feel like I was much younger when it all started my first thought I can remember was when I was at a sleepover two weeks prior my nana had passed away so I was already feeling very vulnerable to my surroundings. I don't really want to get into the details of my thoughts because I don't want anyone on here to feel triggered which tends to happen to me occasionally. throughout my teenage years well until I was 16 I felt like I needed to be locked up or hidden away because I was some kind of crazy person going to my local doctors I was getting diagnosed with anxiety and depression to me but that didn't feel right I still felt like I had all this weight on my shoulders, and I wasn't getting any relief from it!. Three years later I started seeing a new therapist and if it wasn't for her who knows where I would be probably still searching for some answers. I was finally diagnosed with OCD and for once I felt happy knowing what I had meaning I could find the right solution to get myself help its been a long road and I was doing very well being able to leave my town after four years of being stuck there because I felt like I couldn't go anywhere, I didn't want to everything was seeming like it was going to be ok I was working at a supermarket with people I love 7 months I felt very free and like i could conquer anything but then we moved houses only a few streets over but still my OCD went haywire I feel out of control i've been having panic attacks I keep going to the hospital because I feel "safe" there when really what is there to be afraid of? In reality nothing but facing the uncertainty is scary especially for people suffering with OCD im here to tell you if you are having a relapse it's ok it will happen and you will get better again you know what you did last time to feel free you can do it again and so can I lets to it together I'm here for you guys lets be there for one another and lets push our way out of this spiraling tunnel I believe in you, I love you., you are not alone.