Hi @Red_Flamingo ,
I hear how difficult it can be to have those contradicting thoughts in your mind. That is, whether to reach out and risk being a ‘burden’, or not reach out and have that internal struggle.
Whatever it is, your feelings are valid. Your feelings are real. I am glad to hear you were able to speak to your psychologist as well as contact KHL. Speaking to someone can help take the edge off so that you are able to put some strategies in place to keep you safe. I recognise you spent some time watching tv yesterday. I hope you will be able to enact some of the other things on your safety plan.
When things are hard, and it feels you are in survival mode, I’d encourage you to take each moment by moment.
