Hi ReachOut!
I just needed a space to share a little bit today. About two years ago I was diagnosed with GAD on top of my 10years+ of bulimia. With much encouragement from close family and friends I made some really really big changes in my life. Pretty much everything changed so I could get better and be more functional - my social circles, where I was living, my work, my medication and habits, how I related to people. I have done so much therapy and learnt about co-dependency, self-care and self-validation, and how to live my values.
Of course this is all stuff I don't really talk about in my day to day life - mostly just with my therapist/s and family. I think today as I just sit at my desk and do my work like any other day I feel sort of in shock about just how much I have changed and grown up through the whole process. I am almost an unrecognizable person, inside and out. The craziest thing is that I feel like I still have a ways to go. Now that I have seen that I really can influence the way I think, the way I feel, and how much I can tolerate, it's like my whole perspective on life has changed too.
Sometimes I miss my old ways. There were a lot of things in my life that I liked, but that unfortunately just made my mental health so much worse, I had to let go. Today I feel reflective and excited and sad all at the same time. Potentially almost a bit overwhelmed. Does anyone else feel like this when they think about their mental health journey? Life more generally?
(side note: I am also just a bit tired - dedicated self-advocacy and self love can be exhausting)
