It sounds like you're going through a lot and are working through some intense emotions. It mustn't be easy taking on such large personal and academic responsibilities - so I just want to ask what steps you have taken to look after yourself.
In addition to the resources provided in the last post, I wanted to remind you that talking to a school counsellor or well-being officer is another possible option.
Finally, I wanted to add that sometimes people say things that they know will hurt you, regardless of whether they think it is true or not. You are your own person and have the power to become whoever you choose to be. From what you've said, you sound incredibly compassionate, caring and intelligent. These are all amazing traits which I am sure will lead to many successes in the future!
Wishing you all the best and 1,0000 virtual hugs,
Sprouting_Flowers
