Hi @Midnight_skylight ,
I'm sorry you have been experiencing this, it really sucks when your emotions are being ignored. Firstly, I wanna say that even though it doesn't work out like you want it to, it's good that you've at least been trying to tell him how you feel! Telling your partner how you feel can be harder than it looks so you're incredibly brave on doing so, even if he doesn't listen.
In my personal opinion, the foundation of a relationship should be built on communication, which involves listening and by the sounds of it, your partner is (unfortunately) not doing that. Of course I'm only going off of what you have put in this post, but your partner does seem a bit toxic which is not good for any relationship. I know you don't want to hurt him with a break up, but there are points where putting yourself first is important. Not to mention everyone deserves to be in a fully loving, communicative relationship and no one, including you, should settle for anything less than that. I understand that want to just wait and see if they get better but, going from my own experience, that time you spend waiting could be time spent with another person who actually listens to you. No one should be feeling lonely in a relationship.
Since I don't know the entirety of the situation, my advice is to simply do what is best for you even if it means leaving him. Because by the looks of it, you deserve better. I hope things start turning up, stay safe 😊
