I'm 16, and 2 weeks ago I had a stroke. I had emergency brain surgery and luckily there has been only very minimal damage to my brain.
I'm emotional all the time and I feel like shit because everyone thinks it is so much worse than it is, and so when I tell them I feel ok they don't really believe me.
Ever since I got back from hospital I have been having this nightmare where I'm having a stroke and my voice isn't working so I can't call out for help. And my legs don't respond so I die on the floor. The dream feels like it lasts for hours.
I feel so paranoid all the time, and I'm always on the verge of sobbing. I feel like I'm over reacting because I'm healthy with basically no damage. I don't even think this qualifies as trauma.
When I had the stroke, I was fully aware of what was going on, I just couldn't control my body. And so I keep remembering and replaying in my head when the drs are telling my parents that they don't know if I'm going to survive. Then I hear my mum start sobbing and my dad holds my hand and cries silently.
I don't have anyone else to talk to
