Hi, I don't post here lots, but I'm really struggling at the moment. I've not been in school since monday, which is normal for me (chronic illness kicks my ass) but it's sort of hit me I have no friends. Like I have a lot of connections, people I chat to in class and I'm a generally very out going and confident person. I love talking to new people at school about ANYTHING! But. Comes break time, I'm by myself. I don't have people to sit with, no one to even just like, hang out with. I've literally just started the HSC course, today we all got our jerseys and people posted photos smiling and having a great time, and all I could think about was how no one will care when I get mine. I moved to this school recently, maybe a year now, but I think everyone assumes I have people, and I don't. I have my lovely boyfriend and friends back home but I'm just alone? I struggle with reaching out to the friends I do have at school (think friends from classes with their own groups, some people in these groups don't like me, ect) because I'm worried they'll think I'm being dramatic or like, annoying. SO! How do I get over the fear of being alone? Or thinking it makes me unlovable at least. I work weekends too, so I can't hang out outside of school, and also I do everything else right. I'm on meds, I read lots, make art, go to therapy, I do powerlifting three times a week, and run twice a week. I walk my dog heaps too, so I don't get why this affects me so much. Help?
