Hey @anonymous45 ,
I definitely understand where you are coming from! It’s really brave of you for thinking about putting yourself out there and making new friends in a completely new country. I can see you may be feeling a bit of hesitation about building friendships, especially after your past experiences and challenges. It’s important you are aware about this hesitation you are feeling, and not being too hard on yourself. If you feel like you want to keep meeting knew people and push your boundaries in a way that feels healthy for you, that’s a big positive step forward. But it’s also okay to take it slow, and set some boundaries which make you feel comfortable.
What might help you is trying to approach your perspective on making friends as a way of exploring yourself in the present, rather than concerning too much about the future. You can’t always predict how a friendship unfolds. It’s completely fine to have mixed feelings about this. If you think you want to give it a go, do it, you have nothing to loose! Just by thinking deeply about this you are growing so much as an individual, and it’s clear how much you care.
I wish you the best of luck! 💛
