Hey @sunnygirl606 , thankyou so much for sharing this with us. I hope that writing this out here has brought you some comfort and peace.
I'm so glad to hear that you had a lovely new year's eve and have such lovely supportive friends around you. I'm so sorry to hear that the grief is feeling really lonely and debilitating for you at the moment, I think it's really understandable that the start of the new year would intensify these feelings for you.
My beautiful Nanna passed away a couple of day before NYE, and it's been really hard to begin to process that these past couple days. I am very much having similar thoughts and feelings to what you've described here, and have also been crying lots! It's really really hard. You're absolutely not alone ❤️.
I'm thinking of you, and sending lots of love your way ❤️.
