Hey @Vizion101
First of all, sorry to hear that you are feeling much guiltier and lonelier than before about your relationships with your friends.
It's however good to hear that you have had a conversation with how they are feeling about this and sorta gauge how they are going about the whole thing. If you are comfortable, I would encourage you to mention how you are feeling about the whole thing as well, I know it's definitely not ideal especially since they said that they need a break at the moment, it might still be worthwhile mentioning how you feel when everything mellows down ( when they are comfortable to talk again) since it's good to clear up any misunderstandings that had been made and hopefully move forward.
However, as @LilacLeopard14 has mentioned, sometimes there isn't anything you needed to change at all either. As with @LilacLeopard14 , there was a point in my life in highschool where I also needed to act in a certain way, in the end, I lost most if not all of the friends that I had to do an "act" for because it was exhausting and draining as it wasn't really "me".
Now that I'm in University, I have friends that I can be myself with and it feels more liberating and relaxed than how I used to need to act. In any case, I'm also glad to hear that you doing a good amount of self-care with the community theatre show and that been a breath of fresh air for you.
Finally, I'm glad to hear that you would be looking into some resources that @Bailey_RO has provided and I hope that they would be helpful for you at this stage. I would also like to direct your attention to an article that I think you might find helpful at this stage of your relationship: 4 Steps for Coping With Changing Friendships
Overall, I wish you the best of luck and if you need someone to talk to the community is always open to you 😊
