Hi @happymunchkin
Thank you for reaching out, it certainly sounds like you have lots going on at the moment and it can be difficult navigating different types of relationships, so feeling anxious is completely normal.
When it comes to slowing things down, this is something I have particularly struggled with myself. What I like to do is, write it down. But write it down in a list format and prioritise from there. Then break each one down into achievable steps, whether it's just submitting applications and then rewarding yourself until you hear back, savings goal, working out a rough estimate on average how much you work and then working out how much from there you could save a week etc.
I would also recommend self-care and doing your own hobbies. For me going for a walk is always a great one for me to stop and slow down, take a moment and breath. I have recently also tried meditation to help me stop and take a breath throughout my day. This can help you just focus on the present moment and what's at hand.
When it comes to civilised conversation with parents, it can be hard, especially when they see what they are doing is the best for you and you still want to respect their boundaries. I found that having a list with achievable steps works for my parents, so it shows I am still doing something even if it doesn't look like it. And do the same with the travel one, find where you want to go, when, who and where you'll be staying research because when I travelled overseas for the first time, it helped show my parents I was ready and done sufficient research on where I was going.
Another suggestion, have you spoken to your GP or some other professional, they can help support you in managing these.
You are right you still have your whole life ahead of you, even if you don't get into the entry-level job you've applied for, you still have 40+ years ahead of you to get to where you want that's just an example. All the best.
