today i completely broke down and went up to the counsellor. i went up just hoping to be able to calm down or figure out why im having a random break down. the counsellor said to me “i have nothing left, i cant help you anymore, i cant try and fix things. Apologies but you’re on your own.” and i left the counsellors room prepared to jump off a cliff. i was about to walk straight out of school to go kill myself but i couldnt do that without seeing my friends one last time. they somehow figured out what i wanted to do and i ended up with a lot of breakdowns on repeat along with a manic episode of finding anything sharp and having the urge to harm myself. my friends calmed me down but now i am lost.  i want to end it all but im just lost about everything. ... View more

Hey guys, Since most people change their dream job whilst growing up, it is quite a realisation when looking back at what you wanted to become when you were 5 compared to now. I first wanted to be a hairdresser, then an astronaut, then a copper, at one point it was an artist but now I hope to be a Spokesperson for the LGBTIQ+ community and help those in the community struggling with mental health.   What have your dream jobs turned into? ... View more

I don’t feel safe anymore. I feel like sooner or later I’m going to end it all. I watched a series called “Don’t call me crazy” on Netflix and its about getting treatment and help in a mental health unit. I have been thinking that since I feel so dangerous to myself I should voluntarily admit myself to a unit nearby. The closest unti only has 6 beds otherwise the next closest is Sydney (1hr45min drive)    I am unsure how to get the help I need. I am too scared to talk over the phone for inquiries and I’m not sure how to run it by my parents or tell my counsellors or CAYMHS....    I’d really like to be put in a program because my thoughts are controlling me and I’m not going to last much longer. The voices I hear, the demons I see are just pushing me to the point where I can’t continue. ... View more