@Everyone Thanks for the kind wishes everyone Tempus: Yep, that was the strangest experience I've ever had. Everyone turned itself around and now I've gone from crying, to the best night of my life with the same person. Never been this happy in my life :) ... View more

@Birdeye and Mischief Thanks for the support! Things are looking better, things are slowly panning themselves out and I am remaining strong from myself and for the other person Tempus: Things are looking a bit better now, things are still very complex but we are working through it all ... View more

Urgh, I don't even know how to properly express myself anymore. Everything I do always involves some sort of math or logical structure, never much expression. The only thing I've ever really done to express emotion is poetry and even then, I suck at that and a lot of the time I have a seriously hard time doing it. Everyone I've showed seems like to it though, I don't know. ... View more

Tempus: How did everyone go so wrong so quickly...from great to crying...wow. ... View more

@Everyone Been pretty quite lately! Life has been pretty fun and full on, I've had some time to read through all your posts and I wanted to key back in again :). @Bee That colourful post is amazing! :D So glad to see you're going well :) Tempus: Well, that was the most amazing day I've ever had! First actual Valentines day and man was it a day! ... View more

Negative: Got rejected again by another girl Positive: At least we still have a friendship... ... View more

I am doing quite well :). Getting fitter and health, increases muscle strength and looking better each day :). I am also achieving more then I planned because I have formed a new social group :D. You know what Birdeye, I should do that as well. I think it will really help me as well :) ... View more

Hehe, time to show off a bit :P. Well I am not actually in Uni yet but I am. I am doing an extension study which basically means I start a year early while doing year 12, so I do have some weight here :P. Holy cow did I feel nervous coming up to the day where I was going to find out if I was going to be accepted. I kept talking to my friend about how nervous I was. I really, really wanted this because it would mean everything to me. Well, I did get in and it turns out I sort of over qualify for the course in terms of the knowledge I already have :P. I couldn't be happier, I've already formed a new social group with everyone doing the same course. We have already planned to all hang out and I've formed 2 special relationships with the 2 girls in the group :P. I formed a bond with one of them that is similar is to the one with my best friend and when I formed it I had only known her for a week! Never formed such a powerful bond with someone so quickly :P. Thanks Uni! :D. And I haven't even started yet :P ... View more

@Birdeye Thanks :). Tempus: Everything is going well at the moment :) ... View more

Negative: Said goodbye to a friend for the last time Positive: It needed to happen, I closed that door so I could open another. I already have other, better, friends so I don't need her anymore. Negative: My best friend broke a promise to go see a movie with me. Positive: I know she has anxiety issues that will be preventing her, I can't be mad at her because I know what she is going through, I can just be there to support her ... View more

Tempus: Feeling is gone! Thank god! Anyway, it's time to be happy, it's my birthday today :). ... View more

@DD Thanks! I had an unbelievable day that day and some very amazing people! Also a very cute girl who came to my birthday today and I got a chance to flirt and have fun with. Tempus: Had an amazing day today! Got to spend an amazing day with all my friends at a pool party for my birthday! But I have this overwhelming feeling that I screwed up with the girl I just spent most of the day with and flirting with doesn't like me back. Feel like I should have acted more, I hope she got the message that I like her and she feels the same. I mean, she didn't reject me at any point, including when I put her on my shoulders to screw around in the pool but I feel like I've screwed up again and haven't my made intentions clear again. All my friends saw that I was flirting with her and I liked her, I mean everyone there saw it. I hope she got the message. Sorry that one was a bit long but it's a bit overwhelming. ... View more

@Birdeye That's good to hear! I've my orientation today :D. Aww, thank you. It's good to be able to post so positive again :). Haha! That's what happens, the holidays are meant to be like that, meant to be relaxing at the start then the year starts again ;). Tempus: I am back at boxing and I have noticed I am still losing weight...wow! I didn't expect to lose anymore but I am still am, haha. Hoping for a good day! ... View more

Tempus: Back to boxing! Finally! I couldn't wait anymore! So good to be back! I've had two days back , a training session and sparing! So good! I loved both days and my skill has improved even though I've been on break! Can't imagine how good it feels to be back at boxing! :D Increased fitness here I come! ;) ... View more

@Birdeye Don't worry about results so much, just do your best and apply! Yep! Can't wait! It will be so awesome to have a teacher! Never had someone teach me programming before!!! Tempus: Realised I have an eternal friend in my closet friend, she will always be there no matter what and I feel like I can achieve anything just because I have her by my side now! Can't wait for tomorrow! Boxing tomorrow, yay!!! ... View more

@Birdeye Wow! Philosophy! That would be interesting! @DD Hopefully! I've invited her to my 18th. I am studying computer programming ;) ... View more

@Birdeye They only require good year 11 results (That's what I sent them). I will of course be posting how it is going on here, don't worry about that ;). What field/subject/degree were you looking at?   @Michine Nope! Still have a lot of things to do. I.E. My self-set projects as well as lots of homework Tempus: Boxing starts on Monday! Can't wait! :D :D ... View more

@Birdeye I was typing this as you posted yours!   Tempus: Got accepted into Uni! Yay :D :D :D. ... View more

@Bee It sounds like you're having a lot of trouble with your homework and since we are in the same year I'll tell you what I do. Instead of trying to a lot of work in one sitting, I just do each subject in half hour blocks each day. I have math and physics questions to do (over 100 each) but I just do half hours blocks for each and I will get them done. As for trying to control your thoughts, you can't it's just that, you can't. Instead, by aware that you don't have to take any of thoughts seriously. Only focus on the thoughts that are helpful to you! Doesn't matter if there negative, positive or neutral, unless they're helpful, don't take them seriously :). Just thought I'd try to help :) ... View more

@DD Ha! She cancelled on me, great...anyway, I will just try to get to know her a bit more over Facebook now instead of meeting up, it seems she doesn't want to meet up anymore. Good! I always drink a lot of water, it's the only thing I drink :P. I find out on Friday, well they're ment to email me on Friday.   Tempus: Curious as why it is so hard to see friends. That's all I wanted to these holidays and I've got around 3 weeks left and I haven't seen a single friend. ... View more

Negative: A 'friend' cancelled our catch up tomorrow, said they were not sure if they wanted to re-schedule. Really angered me. Positive: More time to myself...yay -.-. Took all the anger out on my punching bag, nearly knocked over the stand with the all force I was putting into it :S.   Negative: Haven't seen a single friend these holidays. Positive: Had plenty off time to myself to concentrate on my hobbies. Also have my birthday party coming up, will get to see friends then. My bestfriend better turn up or I am going to flip out   Negative: Had too much time to myself, starting to lose interest in my hobbies and lacking motivation Positive: Boxing starts again next week, get me out of the house and doing something I love   Negative: Lacking motivation to do my normal boxing training routine. Positive: Give myself a break, still haven't taken one from boxing yet. Time to think? I don't know, there isn't much positive about this one, at least I start boxing at the gym again next week. ... View more

@BirdyEye Ah yes, I know the exact feelings but I overcome it by just hitting send while not thinking about anything :P.   @Lokifish Haha, oh time zones, such fun :P. Yes, it is a really troubling time here in Aus, I hope everyone stays safe and has a fireplan   @DD She is a little younger then myself and I met her through a common interest, I hope I can have a new friend to hang out with :P. Also, make sure to safe in the heat! Be sure to drink lots of water! :)   Tempus: Starting to get a bit anxious over whether or not I get into Uni, really want this! Have to prepare for the disappointment if I don't get in though. It's gotten a bit cooler here today, thank god! ... View more

@Bee Great to hear you're happy with your hair! :).   @Birdeye Yeah, I have and I try to do that everyday :). It's just like I feel like that if someone ask me who I am, I honestly couldn't tell them. I have been called so many things and the only thing I ever felt was right, was a boxer a coder, now I don't really feel that way. I think I will just have to wait and see, just go each day by doing what I love and, like you said, feels right :). Haha, hopefully it will be :), it will also be bit of a pool party :P. Oh! I love busy times, always feel like I am doing something with my life!   Tempus: Just realised that I have the potential opportunity to have a girlfriend but I have decided that instead of trying to pursue this girl, I am just going to be friends with her :), if something happens, I wont stop it though :P. ... View more

@Bee Oh, really?! My school told us about it last year and I am the only one in the school doing it :P. Yeah, I've got 3 weeks to get it all done, I know I can get it done, just have to at least spend half an hour a day from now on doing homework. Oh! A haircut :D. It's sound very beautiful :).   Tempus: Homework, homework, more homework :P. Not much news from the last few days, just being relaxing but I am starting to feel pressure from all the homework and all the projects I have set for myself :S ... View more

@Cheekyone Hello! I hope you had a great Christmas and NY :).   @Bee Haha! I don't think I know anyone who could do what you described :P. Haha no, I mean starting Uni in year 12. It's called University Extension Study, it basically means over the course of year 12 you can do a semester worth of Uni level work in an area and it's credits to a relevant degree when you go to Uni.   Tempus: Just got an email back from KHL, wow that's a long email...Got a lot homework to do before I head back to school, really should have started during December. My year really gets started next week! I start getting busy again! Yay :D. Also planning my birthday get together, fun :P. ... View more

@Bee Haha, it seems you have a truly unique skill there ;). Haha, yep! Details, details, pay attention and you will all the information you'll ever need ;). The closest important date for me is that I find out if I get to start Uni during year 12 :P ... View more

Negative: Realised I've lost my ability to self-identify and it's causing me a lot of stress Positive: Give me a chance to re-define myself in my new image Negative: Still haven't seen my bestfriend these holidays even though she said we would 'soon' awhile ago. Positive: Have time to myself to get things done, like homework and all my self created projects I want to do. Negative: Feel like I've set myself too much work Positive: I have plenty of things to keep me busy ... View more

Well if we lived in a perfect world I'd spend the whole day with friends and spend the nights satisfying my hobbies. But as everyone knows, that is not the case. I normally spend my days programming, reading and training for boxing and the same thing at night although I am normally talking to friends at night over Facebook, MSN or some IM service. I did, however, spend the day before last all day at the beach in the beautiful sunshine. ... View more

@Bee Wow, the only time I've ever managed to crash my Linux based OS is when I was editing system files and playing around with driver settings. You must really have a talent for it :P. Crashing it by browsing...just wow :P. Ha! Bee I just worked out we are the same age xD.   Tempus: Realised I've basically lost my identity through all this change, I have no idea who I am anymore because I have shed so much of my old ways. Now that could be a good or bad thing :P, although it did cause me a great deal of stress ans basically broke down and blurted everything out to my bestfriend. Still getting fitter (yay :P), still programming (struggling still!) and trying to meet up with friends but still no success; haven't seen a single friend these holidays! Birthday coming up soon, hopefully I'll have a get together and see my friends finally! A few important dates coming up for me, going to be an interesting year! ... View more

Yes you are in the right spot. Also I'd to say welcome as I can see you are new here :). Welcome to the RO forums and I must say you've taken a really big first step, often the hardest, to getting help and dealing with your issue :). Well done mate! ... View more