[D] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 We just came back from a short holiday, so we’re going alright. I think R agreed to let Br become host, but at the moment a lot of people are just exchanging control.   I think Br found another past host, so now we know there have been 7-8 hosts of our system (as we’re unsure if Io is a split or an ex-host, and not counting Br). We’re also trying hard not to think about our trauma, and a lot of us are still worried we could be wrong about whether our system came from trauma or not.   I think I just took over from Dm (one of R’s splits) and she was a bit worried about a doctor’s appointment we have this morning, since this doctor we’ve only seen once and she only found out about our plurality recently, so we’re not sure what to expect. Dm was also worried about if the doctor will think we’re faking. I think the appointment is mainly going to be about HRT though, so I don’t know if I need to be worried. ... View more

[Mn*] I'm the one Br was talking about. I think she switched out. I'll let her know.   A factive is a member based on someone or something real on the outside. There's also a similar term (fictive) for members based on fictional sources.   I just kind of want to go dormant. ... View more

[Br] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 I think we could do that. If we were to go with the meeting option I might have to talk to them all one at a time, so that could take a while. Might try just asking R a bit later.   I just found someone new. He's a factive of a pet we used to have, but not for very long. He thinks he's been around since his counterpart's death in December 2016, but he's admitted he's not 100% sure about it. He seems to be having a hard time with what happened to his original counterpart as well as having partial flashbacks from Ms' trauma. He thinks nobody will love him because he'll be a reminder of what happened to his counterpart. I don't know what to do, I feel really sorry for him though. ... View more

[Br] @Tiny_leaf I would ask her, but with there technically being twelve Rs (the one who kept R's name, Ru, Av, Oc, Ch**, Cp*, Ds, Ml, Dp, Dm and Ch^), I'm not sure what to do. Should I ask all of them? ... View more

[Br] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 Yeah, school is over now, except we still have a lot of catch-up work to do. I hope they all feel less overwhelmed too.   @Taylor-RO I haven't met Dm or R yet. They haven't been awake since before I showed up. We can exchange control if the person who's going to take control wants it, even if the current controller doesn't. As for hosting, all of our host swaps weren't intentional. I woke up with the body again this morning so I assume that that means I'm going to be host I guess? I don't really know how that works, since all of the previous host swaps have been without anyone knowing. Hopefully a break will help them calm down. ... View more

[Br] @Maddy-RO Another new person here. I woke up this morning in the body and it's taken most of the day to figure out who I am.   I'm feeling alright. Been feeling neutral most of the day. Had some blood tests to check how our body's reacting to HRT. Unlike R I did it without half-screaming. Our system's been chatting with a friend in another system recently and I just checked to see how she was going and she thanked me and said some nice things about us that made me happy.   I have some memories from last night of Dm wanting to kill herself. I don't think R or her splits should front for a while. We're going for a short holiday on Sunday and coming back on Tuesday so I think they should get some time to enjoy that but I think while we're at home I should be switched in just so we're safe. I have no idea if I'm going to regret this later, but I want to try becoming the new host. The previous hosts seem to generally feel better since they're no longer hosting, including the ones who were frequently suicidal. Hopefully the same will work for the Rs. ... View more

[Dm] @StormySeas17 I have no idea when I switched in and how much of today was R and how much was me, but I'm here now. (For context, I'm one of R's splits). Just submitted the assignment.   I'll try looking some of those stories up now. Hopefully they won't be too triggering.   I think we'll be okay. We haven't met her yet and she's new at our school. Our psychologist is coming back to work next week and we still have here and KHL if we need support. ... View more

[R] @StormySeas17 We are under a lot of stress. The principal called our mum to let her know our appointment with the new counsellor has been cancelled, so there's a bit less stress now.   Thank you. That does give me a bit more hope. I might do that once I've finished this assignment.   @Maddy-RO Apparently this is common. It's still confusing and I'm still really worried about being wrong. The thing with the new counsellor got cancelled, so I guess we'll have to meet them next term. ... View more

[R] @Sophia-RO We were really little so I don't remember.   Not feeling good today. Still feeling suicidal and I'm feeling like what we're experiencing can't be DID/OSDD. I don't know if we're suffering enough or if what happened to us hurt us enough but I feel like it can't be real. I don't know what's going on, I feel like we're just stuck in a cycle of new people showing up and feeling fake and I just want it all to stop. I don't know how we're going to get better. Or are we non-DID/OSDD and have nothing to get better from? I don't understand where to go from here.   Today's going to be quite stressful because we have to get that assignment done and we're also meeting the new school counsellor who I'm guessing is going to find out that we're plural today. Not sure how we're going to handle that.   I don't even know if I'm really R because I read some messages from her that she sent yesterday and I feel like someone else wrote that. I hope there hasn't been another host replacement. That is, if we are actually having our hosts replaced and I'm not delusional. ... View more

[R] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 Sorry for the late response, yes it is viewing! Your turn! :) I guess it could be doing a makeup tutorial, who knows? ... View more

[R] V is for...   Don't ask why I put an alien in there. The alien doesn't have anything to do with the action, but the eye does. ... View more

[R] @Sophia-RO We used to know someone who had a German shepherd called Murray. Golden retrievers are nice too!   @Lost_Space_Explorer5 I'd like to do Pictionary. That sounds like fun :)   @Bananatime04 Macy sounds a bit like one of ours. Ours is turning 4 soon and he's a maniac! He's still learning after I don't know how long that when we tell him to sit he's supposed to sit.   I was just wondering earlier if there were any other members in our system who were around a long time ago and someone old woke up. He didn't have a name so we're calling him Pz. He says he used to be host when we were a child, but when I started to ask if he was around the time Ms was, he freaked out and had a bit of a partial flashback. I think he's alright now. For some reason he feels really familiar. ... View more

[R] They're so cute! ... View more

[R] @Bananatime04 Papillons :) ... View more

[R] @Bananatime04 We like lots of animals. Many members of our system have mental forms that are animals. We like dogs. I'm not sure, a fennec fox maybe? They're really cute. Macy is adorable :) ... View more

[R] @Bananatime04 Thank you. That's alright.   How about we talk about animals? ... View more

[R] @Bananatime04 It is a lot. We told our psychologist in April and they've told all of the other ones that we're plural. They don't seem to think it's anything concerning. Our mum now knows too.   Yeah, I'd like to chat. Not sure what to talk about though.   @Janine-RO I managed to get out of there. I came downstairs and he has no idea what was going on. He's hopeless. ... View more

[R] @Janine-RO Yeah I’m one of the ones who works on games. I’m supposed to be working on an assignment I need to get done by Friday morning.   I’m in a bit of a dangerous situation now and I’m too scared to do something that’ll hurt me but I’m too scared to get out of it. I tried texting our dad for help but he’s not checking his phone and he’s just watching TV loudly. I don’t know what to do ... View more

[R] @Bananatime04 I’m not sure. I’m just feeling really bad right now.   And yes, I meant two hundred and thirty-three (233). ... View more

[R] Sorry @Bananatime04 We didn’t see your post. We’re not going too well at the moment. We’ve had lots of new people. We’re up to 233. ... View more

[R] Mum just left the house, and our psychologist isn’t working at the moment. ... View more

[Za] @Janine-RO The next time we'll be able to see our psychologist is next week. It was pretty scary. R woke up after I sent my last post and I'm concerned she still wants to hurt herself. ... View more

[Za] I'm not involved in the coding stuff, but I guess it is cool.   I'm a bit worried because R nearly did something bad to the body about an hour ago and no one was there to stop her, in-system or out. She didn't do anything but I'm still concerned. She's been a bit freaked out lately because she thought she was the same person as our host at the beginning of the year but apparently our host in February and March was Lt. I remember her thinking that the more we find out, the less sense things make and that she was sick of how our system just keeps growing.   I'm not really sure what to do. Should I tell someone what's going on? ... View more

[Zr] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 Hi, I'm new. Our system uses a drag-and-drop block coding engine called Stencyl. ... View more

[Dp] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 The games are going well. Ds finished a new level that'd been in progress for a while and I managed to get an S rank (stupidly hard) but I forgot to record it. So, now I'm trying to do that all over again. ... View more

[Dp] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 Maths is important. I meant like stuff like what we're supposed to be doing at the present moment. Although sometimes we don't remember much of what happened earlier in the day. All I remember from today was that Ds went to school to have lunch with friends and they procrastinated to work on one of our games earlier (I know the last bit because I've been playing it). I don't really remember anything else from today. ... View more

[Dp] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 It does make things a bit trickier. Usually we remember the important stuff at least, I think. ... View more

[Dp] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 Yeah, sometimes we seem to get memory issues between each other. I don't think we used to before April aside from not remembering our trauma or about our system existing earlier than we thought, but now we seem to have more noticeable memory issues. We don't get complete blackouts if I'm not mistaken, but we can usually remember at least some details.   It wasn't actually meant to be due on the last day. Technically it was due earlier this morning, but we got an extension until Friday.   Btw, I'm another one of the splits from R. ... View more

[Ds] @Lost_Space_Explorer5 Yeah, that was me. I just opened the test paper and my mind completely blanked on everything we’d studied because other people had done it in the system, not me.   Apparently it’s an estimate. I have no idea how anyone would keep track of that many.   I think everyone did some more maths today. There’s also an English assignment we’ve been working on that’s due on the last day of school. I’m sure we’re all looking forward to the holidays. ... View more

[Ds] Hi! I’m one of R’s splits from the other day, and the one who was supposed to take that maths test the first time.   225 is a lot. The largest system we know of claimed to have approx. 3.8 million members and they even had their own wiki for the main ones.   We’re still in school at the moment. The term ends this Friday. We’ve been doing school work and I think Lo and Re went for a walk. ... View more