My abuser recently passed while I was in the process of going through the processes with the police, he had not yet been made aware that I had contacted the police about it. It was a slow process on my behalf due to severe anxiety. Some days I just couldn’t bring myself to turn up to the police station. I felt as though I wasn’t being taken seriously and even made me question myself wether I was doing the right thing. When he died I mourned and still am as if the whole experience had started again. I don’t know where to go from here, I don’t know the right people to talk to about it. His wife was an accessory to the sexual abuse but I feel as though I can’t just leave it at this. He can’t have just died thinking it’d never be brought back to the surface after I grew up and left. During the time it was happening I was in a bad place with my family and had no one to talk to about it, I couldn’t even talk about it to my psychologists and psychiatrists. I feel so stuck in this endless cycle of anger and confusion. ... View more