Hello People,   I am in pain.....I don’t know how I did it but I have stuffed up my lower back, I have seen dr and they say to lose a bit of weight and move around a bit more. Been doing core excerises but it hasn’t done much. I now have a sharp stabbing pains and can’t run or walk fast. I rely one KAFO splints on both Legs and crutches. I now get numb and pins and needles at night and whist sleeping and daytime. I hope I don’t need a wheelchair further down the future!!!!   Been a year since both my legs packed up  whist at London in my brother’s house that has a lot of stairs. Regrettably it forced me to give up my beloved train work I used to love so much. Been missing it ever since as I amounted to a proud position of Master Train Roofer and had a nice little fleet of carriages to repair and maintain, ever since I missed it so.   I have prided in my mobility so much and the day I was forced to use crutches I found hard to accept that I had use crutches full time..I would be so disgusted if I had use a wheelchair as I value my two legs and walking with aid two crutches means a lot to me and it’s hurt my pride that I have use crutches, but if I am forced to use a wheelchair I’ll do it at the last option.........But if I have to it’s not do it because I want to, it’s do it or else!!!   Going to get treatment soon. Wish me luck!   A broken down Train Girl ... View more

  Hello Again it’s Snuffle-nose here,   I have done it finally without getting side tracked to gamble, as I took my mum to accompany me as I made the decision to do it, as I wasn’t forced to exclude. As I felt my gambling is now a addiction or “compulsive” which is no good at all. There are stiff penalties for breaching the conditions as it is a legal document. First offence is a warning and any other offences after that is escorted off the gaming grounds and a fine of $2000 dollars!!!   It is a lot of money for people.............But it make a good deterrent every slip up will cost the offender a lot money!!! It is finally over, my crown casino memberships revoked and my excludsion is in effect. I feel a weight lifted of my shoulders I went there and walked out of the casino with my spirits soaring. No maddening urges so far, as I will pay dearly if I go within the gaming area. A good deterrent now I am casino free now that I am excluded.   ... View more

hello Gang   I am having issues with me folks that everytime when I am down or when I am agitated  not only I get a lecture  butthey threaten to me to put me alway in hospital!!!!! I haven't felt normal lately, what ever that is!   What been happening that I have been in really black mood and any little makes me blow me top. My folks are afraid of letting me go out by myself as if people are nasty to me I'll blow or thump em. I have very volitle for past few weeks and it no fun. I happen to know that there is such thing as invoulentery admitssion  into hospital and It means a long stay there  and I am not very please about the fact that my folks are thinking of putting me in there!!!!      [everytime I blow at anything] ... View more

I am having issues with my  short fuse and temper, I seem to blow at minor things as well major things.....I can't hold my temper anymore as all my life have been made restrain my frustrations and now that has turned a rage and fury that I can't control.   I have medications for it but I am fearing that If I try mix with soceity in the public I will blow and get in heaps of trouble, even my parents feel I may  get in trouble if there's no one to phyically restrain me. As I have gotten so mad over nothing, for example a late bus I'd be grumbling and cursing under my breath or  if more  phyical  such as a abusive pushy person there are  time I'd get so mad that I want  shove him/her or belt him! This is when I need someone hold me back or destract me from doing so!!!   Timetables is another, say if my moms changes a time when she told me earier she'll later, I'd end up blowing a fit.....espiecally when she says she'll pick me up and at the last few minutes she says take public transport, I take public transport but in a really black mood.. .Usually I am ok if I am at home, or doing something I like, but now I started to get cheesed off if  I stuff somthing up. Plus I hate certin odd weather changes ie:thunderstorms!!!! They send me irrate!!!!~ ... View more

Hi  People,   I am having issue with my sleep, I seem to be getting these reoccuring nightmares, most of them make wake up screaming. What is about I do not really know.....   Some of them  is about that  feared noise of all that I know of, the distinct sound of a Thunder storm in progress. Most I cannot trace why it made me react in so extreme way!   It's starting effect my train work to the point I can only last  one day, the second day I am totally smashed, fatuige and unable to work properly. That is effecting my stamina, which is near to zero   Need help desperatly getting really shredded phyically and mentally.   ... View more

Hello People,   I have made egyptain Pharoh costume..... I bought a pre made costume which was really a eygptien queen mummy.  I didn like the symbol on the front of the crown as it repersented "death" so I transformed it into a double crown of eygpt.    Instead of the usual whitem  and red it was red and gold.....I kept the structure the headpeice intact so, there was no sewing work needed. I used sticker coloured shiny paper foil and sitcker dots and cut it to the required shape or stuck it in the required area.   I transformed the death symbol into a decorative cobra triangle frame......The cobra was in the center of the triangle, and it was enclosed in trianglaur frame in front the crown..  I then made crook and fial and collar and  wrist band.   I even got summer weight  headpeice which I made up from a cobra head peice, at frist a metal circlet and cobra in the front....then I got blue statin [a royal color] and fixed carefully in the foam head pad in the  cobra head peice.   With little sticky shiny decoration it looks quite good.I even got a photo of the progress of making it, now done it look great. Gotta few photos of it ... View more

I have done all I can so I was told today by my boss, he was good about it.....no angry looks, infact he was sort of sorry that he had move me on. As earlier when I first was acessing the carriage I warned him there may be some major work to be done, I know  that is a task I cannot do as I am not trade qualified  is I do not know how work around stress areas in carriages as he now know the work requires someone who's a trade qualified, which I am not.   As thatwork requires someone with the know how around stress areas in wooden structures. Now I am very tired but okay about it......as I have a carraige waiting for me in the yard for me to fix it's roof! I might take few weekends off and take it  easy and energize myself up for  the next task.   That one project took alot out of me , up down on ladder all day long, with heat gun and arms overhead most the time....after that you so tired and hungry you wolf down what's put in front of you! He was good boss , not a bully.....so rare you find people like that. Once you got em, do anything do keep em happy. Plus that I will  just that, because  any thing like  can change in a wink of eye  asthe man upstairs is friends with Murphy  and what he gave you he can take aways just as easliy!!!   So I will not take this for granted.....as if you do, the man upstairs and his friend will set you straight. ... View more

Hi gang,   It little ole me again.....Lately I have been extremely volitle, blowing my stack and swearing my head or bellowing my head off swinging me arms here and there......Been seeing case manger, what do I do????   ... View more