I’m feeling pretty comfortable here.

I can see their notes about me on the iPad in my room. It’s pretty cool. Although this morning’s notes were a bit inaccurate. They said ‘mood good’ (I said depression), and ‘ongoing anxiety’ (I said I wasn’t too anxious). 🤦‍♀️ Other than that it’s pretty good and very interesting.

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No one has ever given me first aid for self harm before 😭

Today in DBT we talked about distress tolerance. I can’t ever imagine myself not using some of my current coping responses (self harm). I can’t even imagine feeling better than this. It’s interesting to learn about all this stuff, but my reluctance to apply it is so strong. I guess that might get easier over time. But then I feel like I don’t deserve it 🤪

And right now I’m feeling the best I have all day which makes me go ‘crap crap crap I can’t feel like this I don’t deserve this.’

This is the first time I’ve done group therapy, and I like how it feels like there’s a bit less pressure on me. I like it better than I thought I would. I’m opening up a bit too which is good, although you can’t talk too much about sensitive topics.

Medical Appointments