Racing mind. Disconnected. Anxious. Depressed
ive been battling this for 3 years now prior to this i was a very fit and succesful man, i did use illicit substances in my younger days but did not seem to effect my lifestyle , im 26 years old now the first 2 and a bit years was really intense disconnection, racing thoughts and a feeling of being stuck in my own head i could never be present within myself and feels like i am there but im not 'there' i would have periods of extreme highs and energy and i would be in the shower for example stairing at the wall so deep in my thoughts and scenarios i would almost forget where i was for a second,
i have had some periods( 3 months or so) where i feel completly present and in tune with my mind where i feel like i connect with people and have good energy, but the past 3 months has been so hard i feel like everything has intesified i feel like my energy and emotjons are all over the place i wake up extrmely down and anxious (thoughts about my parnter leaving me wich isnt true and nothing to go off, or just going to work n dreading it) i have woken up at 3 am and been so wired staring at the ceiling woth my mind feeling like its going so fast but i couldnt tell you what i was thinking of, i feel so disconnected from my self there is a feeling in my head i cant even describe but it is like i just cant feel and think clearly, racing mind (not of a percific thought just all over the place) i can be so anxious and down in the morning but i could be extremely energetic in the afternoon then back down again but the feeling in the mind never goes away,
i seeked proffesinal help they said they havent heard of anything with all these symptoms i am on medication (been on for 2 week) i feel like it hasnt helped at all (early days i know) ive also taken other medications it seem to make me feel better about a year and a half ago but i stopped for 6 months tried to take it 3 months ago but had to stop after a week because it made me extemely manic as they say
im just writing this to see if anyone has or is experincing this kind of thing and any help would be greatly appreciated thankyou
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I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a tough time @Mitch1234. It's great that you've come on here to express how you feel. Everyone's experiences are different, but I have generalized anxiety disorder myself so I definitely understand what it feels like to have racing thoughts, and if I have bouts of anxiety it also tends to be at its worst when I wake up in the morning. So know you are not alone! ❤️ I personally find that writing down my anxious/intrusive thoughts in a journal really helps as it stops the thoughts from just swirling around in my head and gets them out on paper where I can organise them and think about solutions. Have you ever tried doing something like this?
Like the others have said also, it can take a while for medication to start working (and sometimes it even gets worse before it gets better!) so definitely follow up with your psychiatrist about what the pattern is for the medication you're on.
Take care xx
Hey @clarii3105 thank you for getting back. It’s not a easy road is it but I have just started writing my feelings and throughts down on my notes in my phone and how I feel when I wake and throughout the day. It is definitely worse in the morning and you never know what the next day will bring wich is annoying but time heals everything, I’ll definitely be following up on the medication but it may be some time for it to work so I’ll hang in there and hopefully better days will come. Hope you are going well
Hey @Mitch1234 it's nice to see you've received some heartfelt support here. Just letting you know that we've sent you an email, if you can check that out when you have a minute.
@Mitch1234 Glad to hear you've found writing down your feelings helps. The road definitely isn't easy but you will get there. And I'm doing great, thankyou!
Hey @Mitch1234
What you're going through sounds like a really intense experience. It must be tough having so many different conflicting feelings and emotions, you have done really well to describe what is going on for you even though your mind is racing. Keeping up with your frequent changes in energy levels must be really tricky, is there anything that makes you feel calmer and more in control of your thoughts?
I'm sorry to hear you've been battling this for three years, that is a long time to be struggling with all of this. Would you feel comfortable telling us a bit more about the professional support you got? Was it your regular GP who gave you your prescriptions?
If you're not feeling like the medication you're on is right for you, you can go back and chat to them about what you're experiencing and seeing if there is something else you could try, like another medication or speaking to a psychologist, is this something you might be interested in doing?
Hey @Hannah-RO @thanks for the reply I really appreciate it,
there’s nothing I can do to control my mind I’ve tried everything from meditation to rehab, I have been seeing a psychiatrist who put me on medication but I am currently 3 weeks into starting that medication but feeling as it is doing nothing if anything probably making it worse so I’m going to speak about changing it. Hopefully the mind can go back to the way it used to be once upon a time
I'am sorry that you have such intense experience and I'm glad that you are actively seeking help. Some medications can take some time to work, and sometimes they might even make people feel worse at the beginning. When i was taking my medication, it makes feel more depressed and out of control at the first several weeks. But you definitely need to talk with a psychiatrist or a GP to see whether it is normal for this medication to take time to work, and if it doesn't work and the side-effects are really bad, you might need to talk with them to see whether this medication should be continued. Also, seeing a psychologist might help you as medication and therapy can have different effects. (Hug)
Hey @Macaria thanks for you reply. Yeh I’m only just 3 weeks in to taking my meds but I understand it can take up to 6 weeks so but I have a lot of support group and great professionals to help wich is good. It’s a crazy time down here with lockdown still but I’ve booked a psychologist in a month time but that will definitely help. Thanks for reaching out
Hello @Mitch1234, I think its really great that you have been so active and open to trying out these various strategies. Speaking to your psychiatrist about the medication is also a good idea. I think they should be able to support you best with this. I hope that you have found their support to be helpful so far 
I also just wanted to quickly let you know that I have had to edit some of your post to make sure that it follows our guidelines 
Hey @Sophia-RO tbanks for your reply, it has been tough hit a positive mind and attitude always seem to make everything a lot easier to handle. I’ll definitely be talking n seeing how we can overcome the sides and alternatives. Also thanks for the editing I’ll follow the guidelines thankyoub
