TW: SELF HARM & ABUSE
so i just went nuts at my step-mum because she told me to calm down. sounds dumb, i know, but calm down makes everyone do the exact opposite thing. she kept telling me to get out of her house and then she grabbed me. doesn't sound too bad, right? no nail-digging, no slap or hard grip just a grab on my forearm. but that brought back so much stuff. bad memories from my real mum. she used to abuse me. and i screamed and kicked and yelled until she left. i felt bad, so i have self-harmed more than i ever have before. i really don't want my dad to see, cos he's already in between me and his girlfriends stuff. i dont know what to do. i can't leave my room, because i'm scared.
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Yeah, what @Sophia-RO said is probably better then what I said. 😅 Better advice.
Hello @kuromii_ , I am sorry to hear about what you are going through. It sounds like a really scary incident and it sucks that you were hurt. Is your dad home at the moment? Could you possibly talk to him about what has happened and how you are feeling scared? I also just wanted to let you know that I have sent you an email, please check that when you get a chance ❤️.
Oh, and welcome to Reachout. Good on you for coming here and opening up.
Hi @kuromii_. Awwww, you poor thing, that's horrible. 😟 I'm so sorry about that happening. It's still bad to be dragged even if it didn't involve slapping, nail-digging etc. Yeah, when someone says to calm down you'd the TOTAL opposite, weird right? Please don't harm yourself, it's not good at all. That's something that I've been doing lately. It fixes nothing. I know why you feel scared. Don't worry, me and many others are here for you. You want to talk to me until you feel better? Maybe.
thankyou so much. im just- im not sure what to do. i feel guilty for lashing out.
That's what happens to me too. Maybe say you're sorry and ask her to forgive you.
