Hi @Confused_with_life ,
I wanted to start off by saying welcome to the Online Community! Talking about your sexuality and reaching out for help aren't always the easiest things to do, so I wanted to thank you for sharing what's been happening for you. Red_Fish has raised a good point about being pansexual, do you feel like this aligns with your experience at all?
Finding the right label for your sexuality can be a tricky thing, and labels can be helpful for some but unhelpful for others. It sound like you're feeling confused with both your sexuality and gender at the moment, and that can be really tough. We have a list of LGBTQIA+ support services here, if you feel like this could be helpful, and we also have an article here about understanding your sexuality.
I hope you find the online community a safe and supportive place and continue to reach out
I also just wanted to flag that I've moved your post to the Sexuality space of the forums