ARRRRGH FRUSTRATION!

I need to vent right now, and I need someone to listen, because apparently mum thinks talking to her about it is "taking it out on her" and "blaming her"

I feel like screaming and crying and I'm just annoyed and frustrated and I feel hurt and used and I just don't even know what to even do right now 😞

Issue: My brother. I know I've asked you all for help before and it kind of helped but right now it's not and I cannot cope with the crap anymore. I legit cannot cope. I'm breaking!

I spend time helping him, advising him on the process for TAFE, I tell him where to go and what he will need to give them to apply for a fee concession. I print things and scan them in (because even though he has the same printer he "Cannot do it" (his words) so I do it. I help him. Because that is what family is for right? TO help each other?  But he doesn't use his manners. He doesn't say please or even thank me for doing anything for him! Like ARGH! And no one sees the issue with it!

Anyway so I asked him to do one thing, because at that point things were okay, and he ignores me. And then says he refuses and makes this whole scene about how he's now going to help. By this point dad asks him to as dad is doing a spray cert for work online. Anyway so he still refuses and dad gets annoyed and says he's lazy. So dad ends up doing it.

After a bit all shit breaks out with my brother and I don't even know how it started, like he was saying how I wasn't related and I was adopted and had no brain. Like he's being so disrespectful at this point. And dad jumps in and says to shut up and turns his movie on loud. So it just drains everything out. And so my brother goes back to his room and I was talking to mum just airing how frustrated I was and then she tells me to stop taking it out on her. Like I was just talking to her, I was using a calm voice even! Like What?  😞

And I'm crying and I just feel used and walked over, and I hate how when I stand up for myself against my brother he just attacks me even more. And if I say nothing he tells me how weak and pathetic I am 😞 I just cannot do anything right. I feel like no one even appreciates anything I do around home like I do the cooking and washing of dishes, I ensure there is clean towels, face washers, and bathmats for the bathroom, I'm flat out doing practically everything and no one else helps! 😞

It's like for every 5 minutes I get of nice him I get rude him for 30mins attacking me

Oh and he's just dropped out of school, so he'll be home all day every day (he's going to do TAFE online like me) arrrrgghg 

I'm just so over it