Hello again
It's been some time since I posted something in this forum and i just wanted to talk the time to write in it again. It's great to see such supportive people on this website, it's really wonderful.
I really don't know how to feel anymore, honestly. I wish I could say that there was so much shit going on in my life to make me feel the way I do, but that's the worst thing. I feel like I'm feeling feelings that shouldn't be there. My life is going just fine, yeah there are rough patches here and there but for the most part, it's going alright. I don't understand why I am feeling so sad, anxious, nervous and like screaming. It's getting worse within each week and I don't even know what to do. There are times when I just get so happy that nothing can stop me or get me down. It's like a high that has to come to an end evantually.
On a sidenote, there was a person I met 3 years ago. At the time I met this person, I really did think that we were going to be good friends. It's those types of things when you see something and say ah ha! and you get along well. That's how it was for about 1.5 years and then last year our friendship started to fade and that really hit me because I trusted that person with things I didn't tell anyone. This year, it's like we are on non-communicative terms. We pass each other in the halls like we don't even know each other. We both used to be so excited to see each other,even though we saw each other everyday. That really bothers me and I feel like after that, I'm losing most of my friends. I don't think I have ever felt so alone. I feel like there are stab wounds on my heart and the knife's still there. I don't know what to do anymore.
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Hey foreverinfinite,
I just wanted to let you know that you are allowed to feel sad. It seems like you feel worse about the way you are feeling because you don't think there is much wrong in your life to be sad about. But the thing, negative emotions are a natural thing to have, no matter your situation. I once read a research article on something called "destructive normality", which talked about how everyone inevitably experiences negative emotions such as sadness and anxiety, and it just a part of human nature. So I really hope you are not feeling worse about feeling upset, because you are allowed to.
With this in mind, of course some people experience more extreme negative emotions than others. That's why it is great that you have recognised that something is not right and that you have opened up here. If you wanted to know a bit more about feeling sad all the time, here is a factsheet about feeling crap. Also, you might like to visit the BeyondBlue website for some information and support about what you are going through.
You've made a massive step by posting here so you should feel proud. You deserve to feel happy!
Gabi
Welcome back @foreverinfinite
We are always glad to have you back here and its awesome that you find the forums supportive 🙂
It sounds like you are going through a difficult time at the moment and it must be confusing not knowing why you feel this way and how to feel. Sometimes sadness just comes even when things are going fine, I think that is normal for a lot of people. I sometimes wake up quiet and sad with no reason at all but if you are feeling like this often and it seems to be getting worse each week maybe seeing a GP like JJR said might put things into perspective for you.
Friendships can be very difficult sometimes and I can relate to your situation there. I always say and I know this sounds mean but friendship sometimes has an expiry date because people change and friendship is not always forever with every single friend you have. It is definitely hard losing someone who you trusted and cared about and I had a friend like that too, knew her for about 5yrs and she is getting married now and we dont even talk anymore but we just moved apart and went our separate ways and even though that hurt me. I accepted it because people change and evolve. I think if it really bothers you, you should speak to your friend maybe via email or face-to-face to find out what really happened between you two.
You sound like a strong person and I think you can get through this.
Take care and let us know how you go 🙂
Hi foreverinfinite
sometimes friends move apart as they grow older and your interests change and this is sometimes an unfortunate part of life. however there is some positives in this as it gives you an opportunity to make new friends
here is a really good fact sheet
http://au.reachout.com/How-to-make-friends
and
http://au.reachout.com/making-friends
if you are feeling anxious, down and sad a lot, have a chat to your school counselor or your GP to see if you can find out the cause of the problems and help you work through them
I hope to see you around the forums
JJR
