@j95 you probably won't see this till tomorrow, and I don't know the whole situation but, just wanted to say I'm going to miss you heaps while you're away and I hope you're able to get the support you need so you can come back as soon as possible! 
I'm sorry things are rough; it's really hard to have those feelings of having changed and maybe not knowing who you are or how to be the person you want to be. I definitely think acknowledging it and working on being the best version of yourself is a HUGE step.
I remember hearing you talk aaagges ago about an Aboriginal healing centre you were checking out, and I wondered if anything came of that?
Please don't forget that we care about you, and so do people in your life like your siblings and mentors and friends!
