Hey 🙂

So I am a uni student with a perfect GPA but I’m basically constantly on the edge of a mental break down.

I am constantly stressed anxious and depressed I have an extreme problem with perfectionism and even if I reach my goals (top grades at uni in all classes) I feel like either I should do more work, should do better or that I’m stupid because I had to do more work than my classmates to get the good grades. God forbid I am unhappy with a grade I lose my shit and have a mental breakdown and can’t function anymore.

It’s also other aspects of my life that my perfectionism really messes up include work, relationships and body image. If I’m not constantly doing something productive I feel guilty and like I'm a failure.

On top of all this, I already have an anxiety disorder and related problems and am medicated for it.

I feel like I really need help because all the stress and anxiety is really getting bad right now due to uni and I just can’t cope anymore but I don’t know what to do.

I have been to 4 different mental health professionals, including psychiatrists, psychologists and mental health councillors and while they were all good none of them actually worked.

I try hard in therapy and I do my best and I always go and engage and do the homework but it never really helps me as much as it should. One of the therapists told me that she can’t help me anymore and she doesn’t know why I seem to be getting better and suddenly go back to square one and said my anxiety was treatment-resistant.

I don’t know what to do or how to fix this. I feel like a lot of it is related to the perfectionism but I have had it since I was a child and can’t seem to get rid of it and I don’t know what kind of therapy would work best for it?

Ps. I have tried DBT, CBT and some ACT for the anxiety

Therapy hasn’t worked...Mental health is getting worse. What do I do?

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