jumping back into life.

I am still struggling with literally everything and i have so much uni work to do that i cant even think straight i literally feel like i am going to have a nervous breakdown just from uni and there is nothing i can do about it. 

Hey @Eden1717 I'm sorry you're still struggling so much 😞 It sounds really overwhelming 😞 Is there anything we can do to help or did you want to talk a bit more about it? How are you going today?

Hey @Eden1717 , I'm sorry to hear that uni is bringing you so much stress at the moment, I definitely know the feeling. Have you ever thought about connecting with Disability Services at your uni for some extra support when your mental health isn't the best?

I struggle with some mental health issues myself and I can honestly say that getting in touch with Disability Services has been the best choice I've made in terms of managing my stress with uni. They were super understanding and didn't need too many personal details, just a rough idea of how my mental health problems interfere with uni when things are tough. They set me up with an academic plan and now I get a 1 week extension for all of my assignments and exams if I feel like I need it. 

What do you think? Would this be something you feel comfortable exploring? No pressure, I know that while it's worked for me, it's not for everyone. Just something to think about if you need some extra breathing space. 

Hey @Eden1717 ,

I’m really sorry to hear that you are still struggling. I know how hard you are trying and how much you want to get on top of your uni work but it seems things really haven’t been going your way lately.

I’m worried about you when you say you feel like you are going to have a nervous breakdown.

Have you been able to talk to anyone you trust about where you are at?

Do you think talking to your mum might help a bit tonight?

Hi @Eden1717 I'm sorry to hear that you're not going well at the moment and you feel like you're just a huge mess right now. Is there something that you can do to make yourself feel a little better tonight?

I just want you to know that i'm here if you want to talk more 💜

Hey @Eden1717 I'm sorry yesterday and today haven't been good and you're so tired and sad 😞 Do you want to talk about what's been going on that's been overwhelming you? Or is it just kind of everything adding up?

Hmm sometimes sleeping too much can weirdly make us tired as well- like this has happened to me. Do you think it's that? Or it could be just you're catching up on sleep? I'm not sure, what do you think? I'm sorry you're feeling like crying so much- are you able to let some of those emotions out? It sounds like you're doing your best with everything, but it would be really stressful and frustrating not feeling on top of everything 😞

Is there anything else that would be helpful or that you wanted to talk about?

idk i am struggling with uni and just general life stuff and i just dont know what to do anymore it is like no matter how hard i fight it is never enough and i can never keep up. idk if the sleeping too much is making me tired or if it is just my body catching up i am really not sure. i could be either or something else completely. i have cried a few times but mostly i just feel too tired idk and i feel slow too like everything feels slowed down and heavy idk how to explain it properly. i just feel so weird and i am trying so hard but even just taking care of myself is too much to handle like how am i meant to exist like this. idk what is wrong. 

I'm sorry you've been feeling so down @Eden1717 😞 It sounds like you're feeling pretty hopeless and helpless about uni and also looking after yourself  😞 It's really hard keeping up with these things when we're feeling so sad and tired to begin with. I hear you with the feeling tired of fighting.. it can be a really heavy, almost soul crushing feeling to just keep fighting. Maybe that's why you're feeling slowed down? I know this doesn't make it any easier, but you are so strong Eden. Is there anything we can do to help or that you think might help?

Hi @Eden1717 ,

I hear you. I know you are trying. You can only do so much as you can.

Is your support team aware of how you are feeling at the moment?

I know you mentioned previously that you’ve been experiencing this since your treatment order, could a change in medication perhaps be influencing this a bit?

I know when I’m really struggling sometimes, even doing the littlest bit can get the ball roll. Like just picking up my dirty clothes and piling it into one place. Brushing my teeth. Putting my dishes in the sink. Not having to finish the task but, just get it started ya know?

@Lost_Space_Explorer5 and @Matt-RO I am not sure what will help at the moment i spent all day sleeping again today and i am so annoyed with myself but i am still so so tired. idk everything is just a huge mess. i was supposed to clean up a bit today but all i managed was taking a few bags or garbage out. ugh idk what to do anymore. 

I can relate a lot to the sleeping through the day @Eden1717 at the moment. It can be really frustrating and impact on our self worth. Taking out the garbage is honestly something though! You should be proud of yourself, it's about small steps right? I'm being serious! Like I haven't gotten out of bed today and taking out the garbage seems pretty big to me, like it means going outside and getting something done? Sorry I'm not much help at the moment. How has today been?

That sounds really frustrating @Eden1717. You're so right, it is hard to know if you are oversleeping or just repaying your sleep debt. You have been under a lot of stress and pressure, so I wouldn't be surprised if it was related to that.

Good on you for getting the garbage out. I know it is probably a small thing out of a long list of things you've got to but it is still something. I am not sure what it is but I personally hate taking the garbage out 😅 Do you think you'll be able to sleep easily again tonight? 

Hey @Eden1717, ugh it sounds like things could be going much better tonight. I am sorry that you trying really hard but nothing is changing. Are you feeling exhausted due to lack of sleep or is it more that you have a lot to do and a lot going on? 

@Taylor-RO I have no idea I am sleeping like 11-12 hours a day lately so surely it cant be lack of sleep but no matter how much i sleep i still feel exhausted and i feel like crying a lot too. i mean i do have a lot to do so that isnt helping. i am also still struggling to shower and stuff which is getting to me and i still havent done an actual grocery shop and ugh idk i am just a huge mess right now. 

Hi @Eden1717

It does sound like you’re in the wars at the moment. It sounds like being tired and exhausted all the time is really wearing you done, even though you are sleeping a lot. These things can take time to adjust to. But I hear you and I know you’re trying your best.

Hey @Eden1717, I am sorry that there is a lot going on today. It sounds really uncomfortable and it seems like it is getting in the way of a lot of things for you. I hope things feel differently for you after a nap 😞 hopefully you feel less exhausted at least!

Hey @Eden1717, just checking in to see how you're doing? I hope you were able to have a nap and that it helped a little. 

@Taylor-RO @MB95 I didnt have a good nap and it didnt help much at all. i am still exhausted and i am having a lot of trouble talking and even writing which is weird cause usually i can at least write stuff. idk my head just feels all muddled and i keep getting scared idk how to explain it. 

That sounds so frustrating and difficult!! It sounds like maybe talking and writing is off the table for tonight? I'm sorry your head is muddle, I can't relate to that all too well and it SUCKS!!!!! It also sucks feeling scared. Is there anything in particular that is scaring you? I know you said it's hard to explain so if its too much then don't feel like you have too. What about maybe just spending the night watching some Netflix or something? That way you don't have to talk or write and can try use it as a distraction to keep your brain somewhat busy? Idk sorry. I am thinking of watching some Netflix myself soon. I have no clue what I'll watch but if you have any suggestions I'd love to hear them, or if you wanna watch something together we could also do that. 

idk i keep trying to just watch netflix but it is so hard to concentrate. i tried laying down and just laying there idk it feels like my head is just shutting down. idk i am scared of a lot of things i keep hearing stuff and the walls were moving and i cant tell if my head is my head or not idk it is hard to explain. did you end up watching anything good? 

Hi @Eden1717 I'm sorry to hear that you're exhausted and having trouble concentrating, that sounds really difficult. I love @MB95 's idea of watching Netflix though! Have either of you found anything exciting to watch recently? 💜

Yeah I get not being able to concentrate, it's very frustrating. It sounds like you've been trying though which is good. I'm sorry its not really working out though. I dont really know what else to suggest sorry. I am having similar issues with trying to focus and make sense of things atm. Last night @Maddy-RO told me to ride it out and honestly as annoying as that was to hear at the start it ended up being all I really could do because nothing else was working. Idk if it will work in this situation but that's all I've really got sorry. Nothing is working for me either.

It sounds like there is quite a lot going on right now and I can see why you'd be feeling scared because what you've shared does sound scary. It sounds like things aren't really making much sense for you right now? And that in itself can be scary but then you've got sounds and things moving too on top of that and I cant imagine how intense that must feel. The things that you are hearing, are they voices or are they sounds of things? 

I haven't really found much to watch, I'm also struggling to concentrate on anything. I was watching this show called Emily in Paris or something like that? Cause I love to travel and just enjoy watching scenes that are filmed in other countries. Have you been watching anything in particular when you're able too @Eden1717 ? I wonder if @Courtney-RO has any Netflix suggestions for us?