Hey @justdepressed , welcome.
I'm really sorry you're feeling this way and struggling. I think you did the right thing reaching out and that was brave of you, so well done. It may not seem like it, but it is. I hope you find support here, I'm here for you, we all are.
I know how you feel about the medications, I've been on a few different ones, about 8 or so, and have felt the same. I have a Psychiatrist too.
You may not see it yet but you do have a purpose, we all do. I struggle to think I have one too though, but you do. I care, so people do care, all of us do here. I'm sure your parents love you and that you bring them joy etc and wouldn't want anything to happen to you.
I'm sure you don't look like crap. I have dark circles too. Please stay safe.
