Hey @Lost_Space_Explorer5, I'll say the same thing to you as I did to Eden.. I'm sorry if I have replied to the wrong section here and messed things up. It's really confusing me!!
Anyway.. I bloody knew you weren't okay. Mumma sloth could feel it!! It sounds like a lot has been going on, and uni stress is just becoming a hell of a lot to deal with on top of everything else, am I getting this kinda right?
I'm really sorry that I haven't been around to support you. Not that I'm important or anything, but I just feel really bad to know you have been doing it so tough and I haven't been around to try and help. I'll try and do better. It breaks my heart to read you were feeling so helpless, I just want to check in and see how you're feeling now? Like I know that shit doesn't just go away, so I really do hope you're okay and have been doing things to remind yourself of your worth 💙 I'm a bit scared to bring this up, and please don't respond if it's too much and you're starting to get back on track, but I did just want to check in around the attachment stuff. I'm not going to go into it cause we both know how intense and difficult it can be. But just wanted to let you know, I'm here if you want to talk any of it through.
It sounds like uni is going to be rather hectic for this next while as you approach exams.. have you got any coping strategies in place to help get you through? Like we said over on Eden's thread, we're all here to support you through it annnnnd will be here to celebrate when it's all over! In fact, I need your help! You know how you're incredible with creating fun themed threads?! Well.. when uni is over I'm thinking we have an 'end of semester virtual party' and I reckon you'd make the best host!! Except, you're not allowed to start planning the party until uni is finished okay? Cause you don't need more distractions! 😂 But, maybe it could be a little motivator for you to get through? Knowing there is a party at the end of it all and you get to host it and pick the theme and all! (Better be sloths involved though or else I'm not coming...). We could even do some baking and everything.. remember when we made those brownies?! 😂 Anyway, have a think about it, I just thought it might be a nice little motivator and a way we can celebrate together?
This is getting hella long and I'm sorry, just trying to catch up then I'll try keep them short! But I also was reading your post about people becoming their diagnoses and psychs not knowing everything.. super interesting and something I'd love to hear more about if you ever wanna chat about it! Just with where I'm at atm I feel like I can relate, I feel like I've become my diagnosis but in a way I also feel like I blame my psych for it because when I used to go see her I feel like that's all she saw which in a way I feel like that's what's made me more sick. Idk. It's hard to put into words but so interesting! Just quietly.. OTs look at stuff through the narrative, lived experience, strengths based approach and I feel like it makes a huge difference. Idk. One of the only things that has got me through these last few weeks is putting some of what I've learnt in my degree into practice on myself and I guess it's made me realise how little my psych knows about me. I'm not just some dumb diagnosis (or diagnoses should I say seems she reckons there's a few 😂). Idk. I just feel like trying to apply some of my OT stuff has helped to bring me back closer to being a person and not just a mental illness? Idk if that makes sense. But just seeing what you and @Janine-RO were saying just kinda hit home. Also.. laughed at the abnormal psych comment cause my best friend was telling me how she took that class and it reminded her of me and I remember just feeling so pathetic when she told me the name of it 😂
Anyway, sorry this is so long! I know you probs don't want to be reading all this right now. Also, don't bother replying to it all cause I know it's a lot and I'm sorry! I'm just on a bit of a high tonight for some reason and got all this energy so wanting to use it while I have it!
I really do hope things have calmed down a bit for you and your mind is being kinder to you, or you are at least finding ways to get it to shut the hell up!! Thinking of you and sending lots of mumma sloth cuddles 💙
