No pressure at all.. just don't let ya mumma sloth down. Got it? 😂 Nah, I'm only joking, you know that right? I know it's human to be let down. Happens to me 24/7 so I'm totally used to it! I get where you're coming from so don't stress! Sorry if what I said worried you or seemed too attached or whatever, I'm just a bit meh atm and yeah we won't go into it. Just really appreciate that you're always there to listen and try understand, more often that not. And I know you can't always be and haven't always been able to be but I get that and I understand that. See.. I can do boundaries... hahaha
Yeah, I freak the heck out with it and feel like a creep 😂 Hence why I never talk about it or show it or tell anyone, except you on here cause I feel like you get it haha But yeah, it freaks me out and I often try avoid it by not letting people in or pushing the person away when they start to get close but then I make it so much worse and everything just becomes a shit show of a mess and well story of my life. It's a constant battle of wanting to be close to people but not being able to not get attached so pushing them away because feelings, emotions and vulnerability SUCK and it's easier that way and then hating myself and wanting them back and then the cycle just begins again. I'm not making much sense sorry cause I'm half asleep but yeah. Defs scared of it and try avoid it at all costs but it's one of those things that no matter how hard I try to avoid it I physically can't. It just seems to be me. Attaching to everyone and everything that remotely shows they care 😂
OMG... do you get attached to things people give you?! And I say that as a good omg because this is something I feel like such a creep for and just want someone to talk to about but also so scared to and yeah idk. Maybe it isn't a good topic to talk about. This shit is heavy and all kinds of fucked up 🙃 Attachment sucks.
Hmm.. funny stories.. let me see.. does my entire life count?
Yeah I did and I think I am finally starting to crash.. slowly.. the nightmares are back so I ain't sleeping much anyway! Woke up in a lovely shamozzle last night with panic and tears so honestly, not sleeping is sometimes nicer 🙃
